Another milestone in the year has passed. Easter. Lovely though it was, I kept hoping that this would be our last Easter without our children. I do this at every significant date, Christmas, birthdays, Mother's Day, Halloween. you get the picture.

What I have been wondering about though is whether pregnancy hormones really make women emotional. or is it the thought of becoming a mum?

I ask this because I have never known myself to get so sentimental or tearful as I have these past few months. I could understand my tearfulness when I was having IVF due to being full of extra hormones. But now I am medication free and yet I still find myself filling up at adverts, songs and television programmes.

Things that may normally raise a slight feeling of sadness for a minute or so, I can end up sobbing at. Very strange! No matter how often I see the cancer advert I breakdown. And even episodes of Casualty that annoy me because they are so biased and very ignorant of the facts (eg the surrogacy story), I still end up breaking down in tears!

So, although I think the hormones definitely play a part in women's emotions, I firmly believe that the main factor is the thought of such an amazing prospect of becoming a mum.

I can't daydream about my child growing inside me or the incredible experience of giving life to my child. But its true what they say about your child growing in your heart when you adopt.

My daydreams are just as special as they would be if I were pregnant. I think of the phone call to tell us we have become parents, the day Harry and I first meet our child and when the court finally authorises us to become legal parents.

And like any woman about to become a mum, I dream about that magical moment when my child first says 'mummy'.

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