Week 4

Still no news... still patiently waiting... I wish I was being patient but its so, so hard. I knew to expect a wait or at least the logical side of my brain did but my heart isn't finding it at all easy.

I find myself constantly day dreaming about being a mum and Harry a dad.. I see us at Christmas, birthdays, Easter, school plays, family holidays, decorating their bedroom, reading them a goodnight story. I imagine the words I'll use when I introduce my new son or daughter(s) to their aunts and uncles and their grandparents.

I wake in the morning and wonder when our time will come and when I'll be a mum and I go to bed at night and pray that it will be soon.

I feel sure by this time next year we will be a family and that is such a short length of time but feels like an eternity.

So, I keep reminding myself that my dreams will come true and that I have to be patient a little longer, we will find our children and our lives will be complete one day very soon.

Just wish those clocks would speed up a bit and make the wait feel quicker!!!!

I am really looking forward to Christmas, when I've been shopping I've seen the children waiting with their parents to see Santa and its lovely to think that may be us next year.

I am especially looking forward to the New Year, a fresh start and a year of hope, a year where dreams come true.

I'm sorry I don't have more news to share, I only wish I did. To anyone who is reading this I hope you have a really special Christmas and that 2004 is your year too.

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